Apart but ever united...

As many of you know,Brandyn and I were told we would have to be separated for thirty days due to insurance policies at the company he drives for.  I know it sounds petty, especially given the hard life lessons we have already gone through, but I don't want to be without him for even a day.  I hesitate to even share the depth of my emotions right now because our situation could be so much worse, or even permanent.  However, these emotions are real and valid in this moment, so I will give them a voice.  I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and it is so hard to breathe.  The tears just will not stop falling, no matter how hard I will them to.  How is it possible to feel this connected to another soul?  When I hear his voice on the phone my heart leaps and then plummets because he sounds so near and yet I can't touch him.  I can't feel his presence inside my own.  Some of you will understand my feelings and some of you won't.  I can only say that before Brandyn came into my life and overwhelmed my senses, making me give him all of me, I didn't think that this kind of love existed. So, though we are apart, my love, we are ever, as always, united.

The beginning of our adventure

It was with heavy hearts that we said goodbye to our friends and family, but we looked forward with excitement to this new chapter in our lives.  It's amazing to think that in such a short time your whole life can change so dramatically.  I am afraid, terrified, excited, and hopeful all at the same time.  I like having a routine and a sense of what's coming next, my husband, however, does not.  I like to say that he has itchy feet.  He's always looking for the next adventure.  I love him for this.  I really do, it just seems that I need to stretch my comfort zone a little, as I truly desire to be by his side in everything we do.  Wish us luck and love on this new adventure, as I'm sure it will grow us in ways we never thought possible!